This is what I remember: I wanted to kill someone. I wanted someone to kill me. I joined the Marine Corps to be able to legally kill someone and/or to be killed as a macho man. No recruiter tried to conscript me or promise me anything beautiful like a GI Bill or a free funeral with burial plot. I did not know about those things. I knew the Rambo and Commando and Full Metal Jacket propaganda and the street gang respect the Marines held. I had to hunt for a recruiter who would even try to enlist me, as all … Continue reading Memorial Day: A Memorial to Memories

“On the Ills of Insanity” You should stop your insanity so that you can boast of your smooth style. Imagine you could simply stop being a loco, a sick-with-it street Sav. All of a sudden you become a good guy, a nice person. After a week of you not being a vida loca loco and confident that you can restrain yourself, you push the moment. Kickin it at La Raza Park, your homies Rooster, Joker, Payaso, and Smokey, drinking their beers, ask you: “Hey, what’s up, why aren’t you loco?” You respond, holding in all your arrogant insanity, “I quit … Continue reading “On the Ills of Insanity”

  This past week, I began sharing community educational videos for all so that we can keep educated and entertained, especially during this shelter-in-place era. Share COMMUNITY education for everyone:         All amor and power to you all! Learning and stealing and sharing, this is my life 🙂 During these unprecedented times, it is my joy to figure out new ways to connect to students, even though nothing will ever compare to the human interaction we have in face-to-face classes. Nevertheless, I adapt for them, and through these mediums I am still giving them my best for … Continue reading Community Educational Adventure Videos

The Grand Inquisitor to Jesus Christ: “Great conquerors, like Timoor and Tchengis-Khan, passed like a cyclone upon the face of the earth in their efforts to conquer the universe, but even they, albeit unconsciously, expressed the same aspiration towards universal and common union. In accepting the kingdom of the world and Caesar’s purple, one would found a universal kingdom and secure to mankind eternal peace. And who can rule mankind better than those who have possessed themselves of man’s conscience, and hold in their hand man’s daily bread? Having accepted Caesar’s glaive and purple, we had, of course, but to … Continue reading “The Grand Capitalist” A Short Story

Amor for Alex Actions: Everything I know about the way the world works I learned from Amor for Alex Nieto. On this, March 21, 2020, the sixth year angelversary of his death, in honor and remembrance of the brother Alex Nieto, I present to you a comprehensive listing of Amor for Alex Nieto actions. This is impossible history. No doubt. Please note that this was not possible without all amor, all of your amor. Please, as you are quarantined, study the entire list and click the links for proof of our power. I will sharpen up this posting, which will … Continue reading Amor for Alex Actions: A Comprehensive Listing

The entire system is built on a lie. It is not a mistake or a miscalculation or an accident. The entire system is purposeful, and lies are extremely purposeful. To it, you do not matter. Nothing you do matters. I am not saying that you do not matter. I am not a nihilist. I am simply a man trying to understand simple things, like right now. I am trying to get myself into and out of the confusion that is reality, if there is such a thing. Life is a never ending process of untangling the web. That is the … Continue reading “We Must Continue to Be Human Beings with and for Each Other”

Existence is existence. There is no solution because it is all beyond imagination, which is the truth, Neta, and also simply imagination. There are no words that can explain or help us understand existence. In many religions, you are not even supposed to write God, as the word, the spider symbols themselves are an idol and also a disrespect and a stupidity, because not even God, the word, can substitute or symbolize the infinity of G-d. Existence is simply existence. Make-believe. Invention. Insanity. Hallelujah! It is not intellectual discourse about the abstraction of existence that will solve anything. It is … Continue reading “The Present Moment Is What Builds The Future”

Amor. Always in all ways, all Amor. What’s that? Love. Amor. Thank you. Respect and power to you, for without you my words are meaningless, to all of the presenters; thank you for sharing, and to Reverend Harry Williams, for organizing this and for being a light. Jesus Christ and Martin Luther King, Jr.’s philosophy of love transformed my life. So much so that in honor of amor love I helped create and build the biggest movement ever in the history of the United States to defend a Latino victim of a police killing. Amor for Alex Nieto. Love for … Continue reading Martin Luther King Jr. Day 2020, Oakland City Church, Ben Bac Sierra Speaks

Regardless of what is happening anywhere else, right now, at this moment, we are living our legacy. Through an unexplainable mystery of intelligence and spirit, we were created and at the same time created ourselves. Perhaps most of all, our tragedies and suffering have shaped us to this beautiful moment. You have your passions; I have mine. I am a writer. Through this solitude and sharing, I try to discover myself and communicate ideas that many others may not see, even though those ideas are immediately in front of them. I reach down for roots because if we bend our … Continue reading Writer Rider: Creating Concoctions of Craziness